Thursday, October 31, 2013

Daughter number two


And I said to her:
Stop it. Stop it. And then I yelled a  
little more than I should have. And 
she said, “Do you still love me?”

Stop it. Stop it. And then I yelled a
little less, but just enough. And
she said, “Do you still love me?”
If guilt were a heart attack, it would be a

little less, but just enough. And
my ears dimmed, my eyes muted; 
if guilt were a heart attack, it would be a:
“Yes, I still love you.”

My ears dimmed, my eyes muted;
little more than I should have. 
“Yes, I still love you.”
I said to her:

Mrs. McEntire...

A curtain drawn
shows her covered.
Wrapped, shawl and all;
paneled wood

shows her covered.
Still, and cold, breath begging;
paneled wood
held over and around.

Still, and cold, breath begging
for a final show, an encore.
Held over and around,
heavier than the air

for a final show, an encore
wrapped, shawl and all;
heavier than the air—
a curtain drawn…





Friday, December 21, 2012

Untitled


How can you add dates 
to a calendar
we share? A boxed future 

in numbers and far away 
places. Pushing a 
swing somewhere with treetops

aching and heavy with the 
wind.  Do you 
see us? Hands clasped and

clutched in the tight space
between our touching
thighs, resting on forgiving ground 

littered with dead things, damp
and leaking rot.  
call that you did not

hear before. 

cannot see 
in front of 
my own eyelash. 

Soaked


It is like old wallpaper being 
scraped from a plaster wall; 
at 

that age, it’s not meant 
to be yet it is.
Question 

every word, wink, and breath. 
It makes me think every
kiss, 

every caress, every undress was 
an inside joke. A gift, 


meal, clean laundry—it’s all 
part of a final act 
that 

never auditioned for. Question 
every picture we ever took 
or 

had taken of us, such 
a low, rough and swollen 
space. 

Hard to see the sides 
of it, the top or 
the 

bottom. 

Untitled


I somehow don't have a word or
words to say what I just could not
say at any point even when I whispered:

"I love you" 

and 

"goodnight."

And I called your name up and down
and up the stairs again because I felt lucky, 
I felt like you might just hear me through your 
exhale of cigarette smoke. I wondered, often, 
if your breath would smell sweeter had you 
been a little kinder or had smoked
a little less.  But I learned that kindness is 
neither inhaled or exhaled: it was in the lightness of
your hand on my shoulder and the circles
it made on my troubled belly.

Saturday, October 13, 2012

blue and black


Your aunt made
a ceramic bowl
and painted it
blue and black.

It’s edges were rough
and uneven but it
still held whatever we
put in it no
matter the smallness of

the thing. I look inside
now and see two rings.
Two rings. They sit and
collide on smooth cold edges,
frictionless metal, soft and ungilded.

No longer guilted
on thinned
fingers. 

Monday, October 1, 2012

A Kind Of Bible



I read each word
that you wrote with
your hand on the
lined  paper.

Purchased for you
for a birthday or
Christmas or on a

day

when we were supposed
to be.

Each curve of each
word heavy,
bends an arc around
a kind of truth
that will not yield
and will not corner
sharp and make itself

blend

(invisibly)     with     out     leaving 

a stain.
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